Saturday, April 16, 2005

it's been a long time i haven't update my blog... i tot i'm gone for good from legenda.. but.. i came back.. n my life there been like hell... for the past few months i tried to forget 'bout 'em.. after what they did 2 me.. but i still can't... it's not the worst part dat i've remembered but the moments dat we all cherished each other...the laughter,the sadness,joyfulness.. haf been shared by all of us... i was ditched by 'em easily... bcause they don't like for who i am.. it's not like i've betrayed their trust... spreads bad things 'bout 'em... they juz cuddnt xcept me for the way i am.. i admit it..i do have my rites n wrongs.. i appologize to 'em but.. they still ditched me away.. how could i forget those harsh words they've sent me.. the moment i've received the messages.. i was truly shocked.. it's worst than pain in the ass..juz try to imagine ... u were out from their lives for a month... out of the blue, u get harsh messages from them,at dat time i was flooded in tears. i tot dat time they took my life away..but..i've sat in silence..try to think back all the good memories.. at the end.. i've gained a lil' strength n replied dat msgs..i replied "thanks for evrything..anyway i'm dead to all of u,u all should be grateful!! i'll improve myself to b a better person n not to b spoken to any of u anymore..sorry for all the everythings dat i made u guys offended..one last thing thanks for "being" my friends." i hope i'm outta their life forever, coz to 'em i'm juz a burden.. eventho it's sad..but i've recovered from it..i found my self in new corums... where they can xcept me for who i am... it's not me the one who had the problem making friends.... i wish they could think outta box.. then they'll know what they did was wrong.. but now i'm glad it happened b4 i step in the wide-real-nasty-cruel world.. at least i've prepared my self if i'm gonna meet those kinda peeps.... hurm..deep in my heart..i wish dis cud neva happens..now, i juz wanna make my self a better person, a good friend, someone can be rely-on, most of all i want to make my loved ones proud of who i am... i wont let 'em down.. i still keep those harsh msgs..juz to motivate myself to live on,move on... and acheive my goals in live.. those msgs keep me going...further and further more towards find the true meaning of life n how to live my life to the fullest....
arduous at 4/16/2005 03:26:00 AM